Sunday, March 28, 2010

Living Your Life CAn Be UnPredictable

Hello Everyone! I'm back and Happier than ever. So I have finally decided, I'm going to Newcastle, I'm going to study my Quantity Surveying Course in Northumbria. I was actually doubtful if I wanted this, I wasn't sure if I could survive and manage on my own, but I wouldn't know If I don't try.
Well if you're wondering why I chose tos tudy UK, here are the following reasons:
Pros:


-The quality of education they offer

-Meeting new people

-Closer to my goals: Getting a good life and earning a living

-The allowance given by the University..hahaha..=P

-An Incredible Adventure for me

- The experience I'll gain afterwards

-The excitement of leading your life, becoming an adult

- Parents, Brothers and my Yvette, being proud of me for going to UK to pursue my goal
Although, there are so many good things but of course there is a bad side.
I might be lonely at first, I might doubt my skills of managing and I might even doubt myself if I could match up the standard of education there in UK.
I only need that confident within me to push me, to give me that drive, to give me that feeling of wanting more out of myself.. So there you go.. My decision.. Uk here I come.. But I'll only leave somewhere in August. It's already March, I dont have that much time left, so I'm going to enjoy what's left of my time here, I'm definitely going to make 2010 better than 2009...hehe... So far it's been great.. Kinda miss E3.. I really need to go back to KL, where most of my highlights of 2009 happened. I need to visit them before I leave for UK.
So the reason to this post, I wanted to say that life can be Unpredictable because on 14 of March, something incredible happen, a really big surprise this... I was so Happy, so surprise, I couldn't believe, for a second I thought I was dreaming or something. But before, I move on to that special day, Since my last post, My life has been normal, just slacking around, spending time with people and sometimes It might be boring but what to do.=P Just the other day, last saturday(13 march), my friends planned to go to the club to celebrate a friend's birthday. Before that, My friends kept asking me to make sure I come because I thought they really wanted me to come and have fun together. Although, I expected too much and I spended too much. I felt so used actually, I didn't enjoy myself but for some reason I took the most money out. I didn't know if they wanted me there for the booze, me and my friends that wanted to enjoy the night, told everyone to drink slow, but NO, some we're too selfish and inconsiderate that they drank the whole bottle to themselves, so some were sober the whole night, and I'm not the only one who didn't enjoy. Maybe me and clubbing just don't go together..Lol... So throughout the whole night, I was in a bad mood, I was so sarcastic to everyone.. Damn.. thinking back.. I should have follow my dad to the Wild Life Trip.. I didn't have to take money..hehe.. But what to do.. No regrets.. there is always a reason to everything.. I saw the true colours of my friends.. Let just say they let me down..
So the next day(14 March), I woke up really late, however I did wake up earlier, me and my family wanted to go to church but we couldn't go because Our house had no electricity and so we missed it. That day felt so stressful and everyone kept giving me a lot of work, I had to go in and out of the house so many times, I thought I was going crazy everytime I entered the car. Erwin, my best Friend, promise me, He could cheer me up with a surprise. I was quite anxious to see the surprise because he told me not to ask any question, "just follow my intructions" were his words. Late evening, I was about to go off, until my parents gave me last minute work again.. I was like Argh!!!.... Ok done, set, ready and go.. For some reason, Erwin is the person that is suppose to take me to the surprise but I was the one driving and picking him up. How is that surprising me by telling the place we're suppose to go??..
Ok, we arrived our destination, and I was shock actually because we were in front of his gf's place, clueless I was, the surprise is here????...
As I entered the house, everyone was friendly but something was very odd... I felt like I was a special guest or the guest of honor, the things that were prepared. Lenny(E's gf) talked to me and I just told her about my weekend being a real drag, the party sucked, my gf couldn't come down to KK with her friends and on top of everything else, I really hate doing a lot of chores.. Typical me.. So as we were talking and everything, I realize, everyone was looking at something behind me. I didn't bother to look myself, because I assume it was the mother just walking by. However, they constantly are looking back, as I was just about to relieved myself of this curiousity.... Everything turned pitch black...
Well it's because someone had close my eyes...
Familiar hands... It felt like I have held this hands before... yeah I did...
Then, few seconds after my eyes were close..
That song was playing...
Sum 41 - With Me...
................Could it be?.............
No way, it's impossible....
My eyes finally saw the light..
and An angel stood right beside me..
it was her
it was Yvette.....
I just stood up from my seat...
Everyone was laughing at me, well it's because the way i reacted..
I think I turned as bright as a tomato..
I was So HAPPY!! =)
My bad weekend became a distance memory...hehe...
Special Thanks to Jacky, Lenny, Erwin, Lenny's mum, Kathleen and Henry
Thanks Kath and Henry, she would have never been able to come..

So Yeah, as You can see Living your lfie can be Unpredictable...
She was staying in KK for 4 days and 3 nights..
I'm kinda lazy to tell what had happen in those 4 days and 3 nights..
So here how it goes, Parents went off to KL on the 2nd day she was here, they were coming back on the same day that My Girlfriend had to leave.. So yeah... hehehe....
Amazing, fantastic and wonderful..... That's how I describe the 4 days...
I finally felt like a normal couple, You know where You can just see your girlfriend just next door..
All My family and friends were real friendly and supportive, we all had our share of laughs and smiles.
I tried my best to impress Y's friends and entertain them as much as possible, in the process I found out that they are very good people, I'm glad to have met them.
Thanks Yvette for giving me those joyoues memories that I'll treasure..
I'm going to miss her when she has to leave.
When She left I started to miss her
Everyday I miss her
I miss her now =)

So there you go.. It's true, Living your life can be Unpredictable..
One minute it was going down hill,
the next minute, you could be on cloud 9..
~Peace out~

Monday, March 8, 2010

My Current Status: I LOVE MY LIFE!!!!!!!!!

Hello everyone =), I'm such in a joyous mood. Although I'm quite full of stresses but I can't do anything about it yet, all I can do is wait til the time comes I will need to face it. Right now, I'm enjoying my life. My Parents are so supportive of my decision i make nowadays, they're quite linear but they're still quite strict also, Although I'm more than a minor but I still have my boundaries. Well whatever it is, I'm happy to have my parents. My brothers also, I'm proud of them, with their sports and education, I wouldn't change them, just need to improve them..hehe... I just wish they would be proud of me for something.. I feel that I have nothing to show myself for, my bros don ever tell me what are they proud of, I always talk to my friends about my bros accomplishment.. Not all the times but still.. Sometimes I can be the most confident guy but sometimes I also lose my self-esteem a bit.  The Big question to everyone is: WHat are you proud of me for? I'm not expecting any right answer, just answer that would ease myself, answer that would make me not doubt myself from time to time. Yeah, we should doubt ourselves from time to time but not always... It's not healthy..hehe.. We all need confidence, later we won't be able to face life.

So this post, I'm mainly going to talk about is my trip to LAhad datu. Before, I continue, I'm happy that my bro found a girlfriend that is really genuine and cares for him so much..hehe.. COnrgats bro.. So After my family open house has been celebrated and everything, I was given the green light to go and see my Girlfriend, Y. I was expecting my mum to allow me to go anytime I want, I just didnt expect for her to let me go, so early.. The week after the openhouse, the coming weekend, I was already arranging my trip, booking my hotel, renting a car and booking a flight there. The arrangements were going well, all I was worried about is my Uncle who was accompanying me on the trip and no one else could hae afford for the trip. So I was afraid my friend was goin to be lonely during the trip when I was with Mi Amor. And I was right but he actually didnt mind and was really understanding about it. I'm very lucky to be surrounded with kind people. I love my life.. Strike one...

The Journey there was awesome, it was suppose to be long but he made it fast....hahaha.... damn fast.. We travelled to 2 cities. When we finally made it there, our destination, or MY DESTINATION. SHe surprise me, she came to my room and we greeted...hehe... I'm not going to give the whole detail to the trip but it was AWESOME... I WANNA GO BACK...  Meeting her friends and family was awkward at first la but at the end, I think i did a pretty good job. She tells me, everyone liked me, some even open up to me, that was touching. The parents seem to be ok with me, Had dinner with her whole family, heart wasnt racing, because I'm quite used to the situation where everyone on the table is older than me, knows more, knows each other. The situation is similiar to accompanying my Dad to a wedding at the table,  instead of my dad now, I accompanied my Dear..hehe...
I was really happy to meet everyone, to meet good people in LD.. I thank everyone for being very kind to me. I Wasn't being anyone but myself, so I hope you all enjoyed JJ..hehe.. 
I really cannot talk in detail what happen in Lahad datu, but I'm in Love with this Girl...
I thank Utada Hikaru for her song - Firsr Love.
I thank SUm 41 for their song - WIth me..haha.. the list will go on on..hehe..
I'm thankful for a lot of things.
Thanks for the necklace, Yvette
I love my life.. My life right now.. I want to enjoy before I move on to start a new chapter in my life which in my Future UNiversities.
Right now, I'm in a jam, This coming friday I have to make a decision between my Friends, who wants me to join them at the club against My Father's quality time with the chance to meet Mi amor, once again..hard decision isn't it.. Which should I choose, should I go on an adventure or dance in the club.. Walau headache.. Hmm.. ok now I'm just going to show you all some pictures of my and my friends..


This is an awesome pic, wish I was looking at the camera when it took this picture..Lol


Oh yeah, me and my friends created this game, where it involves eaating wasabi, mustard or disgusting pickles, if ur hand loses in the blackjack.. U know blackjack.. 21... U know..
This game rocks hard..Check out the other photos in my facebook..
Killa


LAst but not least..
Well the picture speaks for itself.. RIght Dear?..hehe..
Miss u so much =) <3
P/s.. Giving up on your goal and changing your goals is two totally different things.
Giving up is turning your back from your path to your goal
Changing is looking forward but with a different direction to another goal
Good luck Everyone with their Goals

~See You Later Aligator~